My ex boyfriend sneakily sent me an email through another account. So blocking his email address didn’t work. And once it’s in my inbox, curiosity overtakes me and I have to read his email.
He totally misconstrued what I said to mean that I still love him and that we still have a chance?? His words were, “I don’t expect you to take me back, but please consider giving us a second chance.” Whatever.
He thought I was angry. I wasn’t…. I was surprised by his self-delusion. He surprised me later by sending me a lengthy text saying he wants to talk in person. His text came just after a text from this new guy I like whom I had a date with last week. My ex’s text totally tainted the text from the new guy. And that’s why I don’t want my ex contacting me. It just screws my (and his) chance to find new people!
I texted back to my ex saying, “Don’t contact me anymore. I’m not angry, I’m getting scared. I’m serious, I don’t want any communication. Leave me alone.” He got it. He answered, “Wow. Ok. I’m sorry it has to end like this. You don’t have to be scared Namechange. I won’t contact you ever again.”
I hope he backs off now. It’s 3 months since we broke up. It’s time for him to get over this. So, we’ll see what happens. I’ve done everything I can to stop contact with him.
It’s sad though… I love him, I really feel that. I know why this is so painful for him; in some ways we were so good together.
But, anyway…. I’m excited to meet the next 3 people I’m meeting this week. Well, actually I’m seeing for the second time the guy I met last week. He’s shorter than me, but I really like him! Despite myself, I like him. It's weird though... I'm looking forward to seeing all these guys especially and they're all Aquarians. Astrologically, it's a great match, and I can't say that doesn't excite me!
My roommate is only here about 25 more days. Yippee. She came home briefly just now. I was engaged in other stuff, and I’m not really that interested in her. Not in a mean way so much as she just isn’t very interesting for me. I just find her presence so *unquiet*. She just has such a loud presence… the opposite of loveliness. Sounds stupid, but she’s just so everywhere, when she’s home. The TV is on, or music or she’s humming belligerently. I say belligerently because there’s something about the way she hums that seems forced, like she’s trying to seem happy, rather than just humming a tune absentmindedly.
Anyway, enough.
