Now I'm worried about my ex.
I hope he doesn't fall into a depression.
He sent me an email apologizing for his angry email from weeks ago. I didn't get that email because I had blocked him. I agree, I should never have told him I'd been sleeping with someone else.
I sent him an initial nice email. But then I couldn't get him out of my head and it made me mad. I sent him a very aggressive email.
Basically, I told him that getting wasted, clubbing, working, and watching TV is not a life. I said it's not my fault he hasn't cultivated a life. I told him he's delusional about his happiness, his goals, and what he wants out of life, and that a 6-figure salary and nice car are not going to be enough to make him happy. I told him that I'm HAPPY now, and busy, and in a good mood everyday. Meanwhile, he's miserable, and it's NOT MY FAULT.
I told him to stop kidding himself that he was happy before he met me, because he wasn't. And I ended by saying I don't want to hear from him again until I send him a birthday email in June.
Basically, I laid it all out. I told him he lives in the world of the dead.
Earlier today, I saw that he'd improved his online profile on the dating website. Now I look, and he's closed his account completely. I think my words hit him, but I'm worried now. How can you deny when someone slams that much truth in your face?
So... yeah, I'm worried about him.
I love him, and I felt like this was a form of tough love. He NEEDS to snap out of this and get over me and "us" and start addressing what's really going on. Hopefully he takes my advice and talks to a counselor.
But we'll see. I just hope he's ok, overall.
