Wow...I just read over my email from last night. Thank goodness I had the sense not to send it. Never send something when you're angry!!
Especially after seeing Pete tonight. The man is... a shell of a man, I guess.
I playfully sent him a smile on the online dating site. Then I sent him an email that said this:
"ha! i told you online dating was the way to go. careful though... there appear to be some crazies. i met a guy who doesn't blink. you didn't help my roommate free her bike today. guess online dating was too distracting. anyway, i never stay mad at people (i think it actually says that in my profile.) glad i contributed to your online entertainment endeavor; thanks for the shout out... i assume i'm "that girl" who was right. (I usually am.)
;) A."
He called me about half an hour later. I recognized his number right away, answering, "Pete". He sounded surprised that I knew it was him. I mentioned that he'd never apologized to me. He agreed, not budging. Then he said he'd been mad at me the whole time. HA! WHAT?!? I laughed. He said that my email to him was so mean, and that what I said made him seem like such a bad guy. He said, "I was mad that you made me feel like that guy. I started writing you back, but then I stopped because I was mad."
I know it's annoying that I am so wishy-washy...but I find that so cute. Cute for how immature and silly he is.
He said, "So I forgot to wash your coffee mug, and so I got drunk and had sex with you!" I said, "You weren't drunk that night!" He said that he had been (I don't think he was...there wasn't that much to drink that night; I remember fairly well.) I joked that I was going to be mad at him again for driving me home drunk that night!!
He said he bought a condo with his sister that day. I gave him a sincere congratulations. He sounded greatful for the words of support. Then we agreed that he would come over to do something for my roommate.
It's really interesting timing, all of it. I'm not a prayer person, but I've been praying the last three nights before bed. Asking for various things, but one of them was to forgive him for how he treated me. I really wanted to not be angry with him.
He has to move his boat out of my neighbourhood tomorrow. No more looking at his truck every morning on my way to school. My roommate wasn't home. I found him online. I contacted him... I forgave him as soon as I sent my email. My olive branch to him erased all my anger with him... interesting.
And him calling me right away was good.
We chatted, he told me his (very much looked forward to) boat trip to Mexico got cancelled. I told him about my date with a guy I met online who doesn't blink. He wasn't as good-looking as before. He gave me a hug before he left.
In the end, he has several months to kill before he goes to work up north for the summer. He has to move his boat to a VERY isolated marina that he hates tomorrow. He lost his month long job sailing to Mexico. He's not sure he wants to do the school program he applied for, commencing in September. The man still has a broken heart. He's lost, and incredibly sad and lonely. How can I be angry with someone so in need of compassion and pity?
I'm really glad I emailed him. We ended on good terms, and were able to actually SEE each other again before he leaves. It feels like I got exactly what I prayed for. I forgive Pete.
