I'm angry. They say anger stems from hurt.
My roommate came in tonight and said, "Oh, hey..Pete came into the restaurant last night. He asked about you. He says hi."
I growled and answered, "I'm still waiting for my apology for bad behaviour; I'm not holding my breath, though."
Spineless, cowardly, half-man. He KNOWS he owes me an apology. He wronged me. He knows what he did. I HATE this cowardly shit of "saying hi" through my roommate. I know social graces would say it might be an olive branch, and polite, but I WOULD NEVER DO IT. The one thing I do have is integrity. In the first place, I always apologize when I'm wrong. I don't view it as weakness to admit error. In the second place, when I know I'm off-side with someone, I don't make any effort with them, because to do so is just fake. It's a shiny social-gloss over an elephant standing next to us.
I guess it's not a big deal, and what was he supposed to say...(again though, I would NEVER say hi to someone before I gave them an apology, it's just not in my nature. It's so cowardly), but I don't like it.
I don't want him asking about me. If he wants to ask about me, he has my email. If he wants to say hi, that's where email comes in too.
I nearly got myself angry enough there to send him an email telling him as much. Because the truth is, saying hi and asking about someone is a gesture you do for a friend, or someone you respect. We aren't in that situation.
Coward.
