So, my ex drove over and we had sex. It's the second booty call we've had since we broke up. I don't think he's been with someone else yet.
He was nervous. He (and I) was hungover, so maybe he was shaking due to liquor consumption, but I definitely think the mild flaccidity was due to nerves. It took us both forever to come and wasn't very good. Especially after I spent the night with the very assertive, sexy guy in Cuba, this episode just completely lacked luster. It was like my ex didn't know where to put his hands, couldn't get into it, didn't really want it....
He's got a pretty negative air about him right now. I guess that's understandable, but to be honest, it's a bit annoying given how much he told me that he was "a really positive person", and that I always seemed really negative.
He actually made a few rude-ish comments while here. He said something like he doesn't "blab" to everyone about our hookups the way I do, and he said a few times that he's been thinking about how I "rationalize" the break up in my head to make myself feel better.
I don't know how it's possible for me to rationalize something that is inherently rational. (?) We broke up. It was over. It wasn't working for me, so I ended it. Hence we are no longer together. I don't see where there's room for IRRATIONALITY, but I guess it exists in his mind. I dunno. Weird. He's clearly still bitter with me.
