when i broke up with my boyfriend in Montreal 3 years ago, i suggested we sleep together post-break up. he still loved me and turned the offer down. (he later admitted he regretted turning it down because by the time he wanted it, i was no longer offering.)
my boyfriend (oops, EX-boyfriend) sent an email this morning... long, saying he still doesn't believe I don't love him, but so be it. He's ready to accept it. He sent an email tonight (I think he just misses talking to me) saying that while he'll be sleeping with other girls to move on, he really enjoys having sex with me. He was offering his "services" if I should find that I'm horny and without a penis. He says he's been able to do this in the past, and that he thinks he can be mature about it. He also said it's not an effort just to latch on to me. He just likes sleeping with me (and i must say, I'm a very enthusiastic partner :)
I said yes to his offer because frankly, I worried about not getting any for a while myself. I am kind of unsure whether I'll be capable of sleeping with him with no feelings and no commitment. As much as I'm in favour of the idea, I know that I will have to have a full social life aside from him. I can't be relying on him as my only male attention or I'll start to feel sad that he's just meeting me for sex.
The thing is, I really WANT to be the kind of girl who can sleep with her ex and not have it mess with my head and heart. I want that. I want to be able to be friends with my ex...but I realized tonight that I have this weird thing where after I dump a guy, I start to hate him. There's no reason for it. I want to figure out why.
So, anyway... I'm interested to see where this goes. Frankly, I'm more skeptical about my ability to do it than I thought I would be. I think it might just be something that can only happen when I'm drunk.
We'll see.
