i can't believe i'm crying right now. a lot. i have this stupid school assignment that requires me to interview a family member.
i know all my mom's answers, so i decided to interview her partner. i gave him warning weeks ago that at some point, i would like to do this assignment. i wasnt' specific on the date, but it has to be this weekend because it's due this week.
he and my mom took off, out of the blue, to california for nearly 2 weeks. they only just got back saturday night and it's now monday morning. assignment is due tuesday morning.
i called to ask if i could come over this morning to do it, and said it should take about 20 minutes.
He was SO GRUMPY WITH ME that I quickly got off the phone with him and said i'd do it with my mom. now i'm crying. he really fucking hurt my feelings!
It was just the tone. i don't want to do this assignment either. i think it's stupid. luckily it's short. luckily i asked a while ago. if he didn't want to do it, he should have said so. and frankly, if he didn't want to do it, he should suck it up because it's a school assignment, i need help, and 20 minutes is not a big deal.
he never had kids so patience is not his forte. selfishness can be a problem. abruptness is an issue.
but that made me feel really, really bad. i felt like a bug. like a really big annoyance. i'm 25 and i was just made to feel like an annoying bug.
i can't wait to go over for thankgsiving turkey dinner tonight. for fucksake.
