I worked tonight. it went better than it has lately because we weren't understaffed and i wasn't working with any bitches. what a difference that made!
after work i sat to have some wine. i did it to be social but i left thinking, "those just aren't nice people." and one girl i don't like who talks about me behind my back came in today because it was her birthday. i was thinking, she must have nowhere to go and no life to come into work on her birthday because at the end, some guy was telling her to get out of the bar and no one stood up for her. and this is on her birthday! she just sucks though. she's so two-faced and an awful attention-seeker.
it's always good money at this bar though, so it would be nice if i could keep my shit together enough not to get fired and to work through the summer.
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on another note, so many nights i look out of this restaurant at the beautiful oceans and mountains (i could tell you how beautiful the view is, but truly, it's one of the most magnificent views in the world, it just cannot be expressed) and i think about my boyfriend. i think how nice it would be to be with him, enjoying the sunset and talking to him. i can't believe i'm at that point with him, or with anyone. i just really love him. i didn't think i'd be capable of this kind of (healthy) love, or that it would be with a man like him. (he's such a goof sometimes!!)
i'm really lucky.
