It's raining so my shift was cancelled again today. Same as last night. Both nights I turned down guaranteed catering work because I was scheduled "on call" for waitressing. It's raining, so I'm not working, but what the fuck am I supposed to do with myself on a rainy "day off"? It's not like I have any money to spend... I'm not getting enough shifts to have disposable income. My roommate is a server too, so she's dealing with the exact same shit.
My boyfriend works monday to friday, 9-5. He has a guaranteed salary. It sucks for him that it's the weekend and it's overcast, but otherwise, he's happy becausee it's the weekend. But he wants to go clubbing tonight, he wants "happy fun girlfriend"... and I am obviously in a really bad, stressed mood. I don't have money and EVERYDAY is the weekend when you're a server!! I only get part time hours, and even those aren't guaranteed because I get cut when it's raining! I don't want to go clubbing tonight. I have nothing to celebrate. It's not the weekend for me, it's a really bad day with no income for me. Why would I want to go to a club?
I'm so grumpy. I think I'm going for a walk near the ocean. What's the point in paying a lot in rent to live near the beach if you aren't going to use it?
Hindsight is Always 20/20 & The Future is All Hope
