Ok, today has turned itself around and turned into an ok day. :-)
I picked up my boyfriend and gave him back his car. He made me laugh, but I know today was hard on both of us. When he dropped me off, his face looked so sad, and confused... I couldn't be mad at him because I could just read how he was feeling.
I talked to my girlfriend about last night's talk with him. She said the same thing I did, "He needs to get a hobby!" It's true. The reason he got so sensitive last night, and lately, is because he has been coming home and watching TV for hours on end. So when I get to his place, I'm like the night's entertainment which sucks for me if I happen to be having a bad day and don't feel playful or happy. I sent him a text today saying I don't want us to "take a break", but that I do still think we should talk about what happend yesterday. He said he'd made plans with a friend and gone to the gym. I was happy to hear that; that's exactly what he should be doing more of... (But watch, I'm going to EAT those words, I bet. His best friend gets back from law school in May. I think I may lose my boyfriend as soon as his friend is back in town!)
My current roommate has vaccumed, swept the floor, bought toilet paper, and emptied the garbages. I don't get it. Why suddenly now is she a model roommate? She's way happier though, I notice, since she's going on vacation tomorrow. (I guess that's pretty normal).
My future roommate got the restaurant job she wanted. I have to say, a teeny part of me was jealous of her, both for the amount of serving experience she has, and for the fact that she is only taking one college course this term and has a car, so she actually has time and mobility to look for a job. In the end though, I am really happy for her. She's an incredibly positive girl, so she's definitely an asset to this restaurant she'll be working at. And hey, it gives me an excuse to visit her there on the fabulous patio in the summer! Also, I do have to remind myself that yes, she got a decent restaurant job, but she also has several years serving experience that I couldn't get because I was doing a degree. She is now in the process of waiting to hear back from 2 universities to find out if she'll be starting her degree this fall. So, it's great that she scored a cool job, but it's no reason for me to feel jealous. I'm actually really happy for her. She's a nice girl.
Anyway, a girlfriend invited me to party with her tomorrow night (a school night, gasp) because she has access to a hotel room downtown (with mini-bar privileges!!!). I'm supposed to be looking after my roommate's dog, so I feel a little guilty, but I guess I'll just take her for a looong walk tomorrow to assuage my guilt. I think it's good though, my boyfriend is out with his friend tonight, I'm going out with my friend tomorrow night; He and I will have a bit of "outside" time away from eachother.
I should get back to my paper, though.
