Do you know that EVERY DAY, I compare myself to what educational pursuits other people are following? I am working toward a job that is not prestigious, pays alright (alright...), and has few prospects for personal or professional growth. Basically, the job is stable, in demand, and hopefully, doesn't require taking work home with me. Did I mention however, that it's not prestigious, and has a very modest salary? (and no, I'm not going to be a teacher).
I have midterms this week and fuck if I don't google someone new every single day. And the only people who show up are the ones doing their Master's, Ph.Ds, or fucking Medical Degrees. Nothing like reading up on the "successful, hard-working people" to make you feel like a chump.
Seriously though, I can't stop googling people. I even googled around my current boyfriend's ex-girlfriend's career path. Start salary is 25K more than where I'll be starting. That's wonderful. (sarcasm). I'm not competing with this girl, I just really envy that she is in a field she (presumably) likes, and is making a decent living doing it. I really wish I had known what I wanted to do with my life when I got to university so that I wouldn't have dicked with my grades quite so much. Having said that, I don't have any inclination toward a particular career path right now as it is, so maybe it wouldn't have made a difference. My only goal, really, was law school and I'm really glad I'm not there right now. It would have been "prestigious", but I would have been mediocre and unhappy. (unhappy being related to, but not a direct result of my mediocrity).
Why am I comparing myself to people I don't even know anymore? And why does the fact that they're going to be Orthopaedic surgeons, and doctors bother me? I never even aspired for fields like that! But that's the thing... I wish I'd had the drive and determination they did... It just makes me wonder where I'd be now if I had known what I wanted to be, and where I wanted to end up.
Damn.
*Note, if I'm honest with myself though, I'd admit that rather than googling people, THOSE "successful" people would probably have been focussing on their mid-term... as I should be*
